"I ruined your life- now fix it!"

I *hope* we're coming close to ending contact for good with the N's. DH only has his one email through which they contact him- irregularly, but still there.
With the tax issue being resolved it's entirely possible to burn all bridges of communication. This is good.

DH has been seeing a therapist and they have been helpful. They understand our no contact but think there could be value in keeping a line of communication there in case the flying monkeys (SIL/BILs) have a change of heart.

Frankly. They won't.

I'm encouraging my man to cut the ties here so that HE is no longer hurt by them, if for no other reason.

SIL is getting married (psycho one with the lynching pop-up book? yeah?) and so far DH has heard from her a few times in the past month. The first contact with her in over three years.

She says she's hurt he won't come to her wedding and that he is making HER look bad in front of her future in-laws. Hearing this, I did laugh hysterically.

Just like an N.

No apology, no change of attitude- just "you're embarrassing me by being distant after I abuse you- I'm hurt by YOUR actions"

And this is coming from a "grown woman"

Putting all this in quotes because the snark in my tone of voice might not translate into text ;)

I'm SICK of them making digs at my husband, me, or our lives together.

If she didn't want to be humiliated her family has fallen apart she could have tried to pull her shit together years ago when this all went down instead of being a bystander watching abuse happen.

I love how the role of the victim is to STILL clean up the N's mess. After a lifetime of abuse, they STILL see us as the fix-it-men.

I think now I can classify her as lower on the intelligence scale on the already low-end of the narcs. At least the others are lying to save face. She's still beating a dead horse because she's too stupid to see it's dead.

There really is no point to speaking with them for as long as they are physically living on this earth.

I'm starting to believe there is no peace, just pain that is happily forgotten.

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